Thursday, September 28, 2006

Weird

It feels weird to be asked to step out of someone's life.
I had always a thought time asking others to step out of mine, but I find it much harder to have to be on the other side.
Specially when I am already quite out of the life.
It feels weird to be told "too busy", "problems to solve", "straightening my life". And feels that instead of being a friend trying to help, you should give a "time out" to people to deal with "messy lives".
I always want my friends to be close by if I have a problem. I would like to exchange the favor and this time I'm pushed away. Admittedly it hurts more than a bit and feels like I am the problem. It hurts cause I think I'm losing a friend and not much I can do, respecting their choice and yet, and yet. . .